Sunday, June 23, 2013

Favorite Poems

First I'll post the poems I wrote then I'll post my favorite poems.

It is currently finals week and I'm busy. I'll post some new content after all is said and done.

3/20/12
These are two poems I wrote in tribute to The Things They Carried, one of my favorite books of all time. I talk about Jimmy Cross, a naive platoon leader unable to withstand the responsibility of being in charge of the lives of his men. He continues to think about a girl despite unrequited love and a man dies while he does, and now he is overwhelmed by guilt. Got inspired earlier today to overachieve on the poems.

I Needed Fixing
Forever ago
Before I knew
I signed up for this war

Forever ago
When life was easy
Before life got hard
I signed up for this war

Now I sit in my foxhole
Forever alone
Encumbered by the weight of men’s lives
Feeling the gravity of war
Feeling the immense guilt of wanting
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
I tremble

Wrested, pried from my hands
The innocence lost
The blood shed senseless

There is no hope,
No love,
No catharsis;
You hold the in your hands the two halves of my heart
The void that exists
Nobody can replace it
Not her, nor God, nor all of the treasures of the world

Once upon a time,
I didn’t try
The world was in my hands
The stars were an arm’s reach
The moon, the galaxies, the space too

Now I sleep alone
Just the jungle, the earth, the rest of Nam
Desolate, solitary, forever alone
This is the end


When you try so hard but you don’t succeed
The tears roll down your cheek
When the light at the end of the tunnel is a mirage
The tears stream down your face

A million words will not bring you back
I know, because I tried
Neither would a million tears
I know, because I’ve cried

It’s hard to forget
Somebody that gave you so much to remember

A smile can happen in a flash
But the memory of it can last a lifetime

There is no catharsis
There is no hope;
I tried so hard but life gets so heavy


What else is there to do?
I cry, I mourn, and I die
Goodbye.




Fix You
Jimmy,

Every day I sit outside
I look at the sea
Where the tide meets the rocks
And the seagulls come out to play

I look at the trees
Where the wind blows ever so slightly
And the raven sits on the nest just like so

The other day I walked along the sandy beaches
I found a pebble and it made me think of you

I want to love you
I want you to be happy
But as much as you can’t stop loving me
I cannot love you

I don’t imagine you beside me
Not next to the seagulls or the raven
Nor next to the trees or the beach

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
Maybe it wasn't meant to be

It scarred you but it broke me;
Wounds can be bandaged
But the mind is not as resilient

Everyday
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
I stay awake
Staring at the ceiling
I am so sorry Jimmy
I don’t imagine you next to me
I want to love you, but I can’t
Stuck in reverse


Find someone else, Jimmy
If you don’t try you will never look
If you don’t look you will never find
If you never find you will never live

It takes a man to hold on
But it takes a better man to let go


Come home, Jimmy
It’s time

The lights will guide you
And I will find a way
To fix you.


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My favorite poems:

Heraclitus
They told me Heraclitus; they told me you were dead.
They brought me bitter news to hear, and bitter tears to shed.
I wept when I remembered how often you and I
Had tired the sun with talking, and sent him down the sky.

Still are thy pleasant voices, thy nightingales, awake;
For Death, he taketh all away, but them he cannot take.
-

There Will Come Soft Rains
There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground,
And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;
-
And frogs in the pools singing at night,
And wild plum trees in tremulous white;
 -
Robins will wear their feathery fire,
Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;
 -
And not one will know of the war, not one
Will care at last when it is done.
 -
Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree,
If mankind perished utterly;
-
And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn
Would scarcely know that we were gone. 

Dreams

Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow. 

Favorite Quotes

For me to like a quote, the quote needs to be new to me. It needs to bring something more to the table than a simple 'feel good' or simple statement. 50 quotes of 'Be all you can be' and leaving at that won't fly because I'm not getting anything out of it.

It is currently finals week and I'm busy. I'll post some new content after all is said and done.

Dreams
"A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world." -Oscar Wilde 

Character/Life
"If you're not failing, you're not even trying. To get something you've never had, you need to do something you've never done." -Denzel Washington
"Debating with a person of inferior logic is like playing chess with a chicken. It doesn't matter how good you are at chess, the chicken will just knock over all the pieces, shit on the board, and strut around like it won."
People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But people will never forget how you made them feel. 
“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.” ― John Lennon
"Play fair. Don’t hit people. Say you’re sorry when you hurt somebody. "
“Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. THAT'S relativity.” - Albert Einstein
"Faith is the surrender of mind and reason. It is the surrendering of anything that makes us different from any other animal. It's our yearning to believe without evidence, to discard all of our logic and reason and to put all of our trust into somebody that is the most sinister virtue." -Chirstopher Hitchens
"Unless life also gives you water and sugar, your lemonade’s going to suck."
"Think of the haters in your life as sandpaper; they’ll scratch you up time and time again but in the end you’re polished and spotless while they end up useless."
"You're generally not a bad person, but you're a victim. You're a victim of the system which infected your mind. An idea is like a virus, extremely resilient, highly virulent. But until you fix yourself, you're part of the problem." -Eric Lin
"Be confident even if you are not. If you screw up, so what?" - Eric Lin
"You can wait for the storm to pass by or you can dance in the rain. The choice is yours." - Eric Lin
"Power tends to corrupt; Absolute power corrupts absolutely." - Lord Action
"When in doubt, don't. " -Benjamin Franklin
"Relationships are like houses. When a light bulb breaks, you don't throw away the house. You fix it."
"I am not upset that you lied to me. I am upset that I can no longer trust you."
"How terribly sad it was that people are made in such a way that they get used to something as extraordinary as living."
"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all." - Oscar Wilde
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.” - Dr Seuss
"It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt". - Abraham Lincoln
"Trust is like paper. Once you crumple it, it can't be perfect again." 
“No mortal can keep a secret. If the lips are silent, he chatters with his fingertips; betrayal oozes out of him at every pore.” -Sigmund Freud
"Do the things you know, and you shall learn the truth you need to know." -Louisa May Alcott
"I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. This is why right, temporarily defeated, is stronger than evil triumphant." -Martin Luther King, Jr.
"Time heals all wounds, but it leaves a scar and renders one unfeeling. A few get infected and die, but most survive. Not stronger, just more cautious." - Eric Lin
“Life becomes precious and more special to us when we look for the little everyday miracles and get excited about the privileges of simply being human.” - Time Hansel
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” ― Oscar Wilde
“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.” ― Douglas Adams
"You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching, Love like you'll never be hurt, Sing like there's nobody listening, And live like it's heaven on earth." - William W. Purkey
“Saying 'I notice you're a nerd' is like saying, 'Hey, I notice that you'd rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you'd rather be thoughtful than be vapid, that you believe that there are things that matter more than the arrest record of Lindsay Lohan. Why is that?' In fact, it seems to me that most contemporary insults are pretty lame. Even 'lame' is kind of lame. Saying 'You're lame' is like saying 'You walk with a limp.' Yeah, whatever, so does 50 Cent, and he's done all right for himself.”  - John Green
"The freedom which we're all such big fans of evaporates when our preconceived notions are challenged" - Hope Alexander"
“When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail.” ― John Green
"Hurt me with the truth, but don't satisfy me with a lie."
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. 
“I am intrigued by the smile upon your face, and the sadness within your eyes.” ― Jeremy Aldana
"...But we don't get a second chance; we regret, remember, and continue to live our mediocre lives..." - Me

Happiness
“When things go wrong, don't go with them.” - Elvis Presley
"If you see a friend without a smile, give him one of yours."
“It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.”

Intelligence
"Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish based on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." - Albert Einstein
"Others inspire us, information feeds us, practice improves our performance, but we need quiet time to figure things out, to emerge with new discoveries, to unearth original answers.” ― Ester Buchholz
"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning. -Albert Einstein
"Modest doubt is called the beacon of the wise." -William Shakespeare

Love
"For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, what could have been." - John Greenleaf Whittier
"I don't know whether to smile because we are friends or to cry because that is all we will ever be."
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you was beyond my control."
"A smile happens in a flash, but the memory of it can last a lifetime."
"A million words wouldn't bring you back, I know, because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know, because I've cried."
"I gave up not because I didn't care, but because you never did."
“I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane.” ― John Green, Looking for Alaska
"Also, I have to disagree about the "High school relationships mean nothing" part. Every relationship means something. They shape you as a person, as a lover, and as a partner. They're important for your emotional development as much as the next thing and mature you as a person. Relationships matter in all ages, because love is the same in all ages (As are lust and infatuations of course). " - Nazgul Killer
"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew."
 "You know you are in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss
"True love stories never have endings." - Richard Bach
"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart." - Robert Sexton
"As much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you."
"I dropped a tear in the ocean. Whenever they find it, I will stop loving you."
"To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed." - Valerie Lombardo
"If I had a flower for every time I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever." -Alfred Lord Tennyson
"Love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house, you can never tell." -Joan Crawford
"I only thought of you once today. I never stopped.
"Don't cry because it is over; smile because it happened."
"Bad excuses are worse than none."
"Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember it's true: Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you."

Success
"A man is not finished when he is defeated. He is finished when he quits." -Richard M. Nixon
"I have also noticed that when a rider who had confidence in his ability was defeated, after doing his level best to win, always received an ovation from the gathering." -Major Taylor
"It's not the size of the dog in the fight, it's the size of the fight in the dog." -Mark Twain 
"You miss 100% of the shots you don't take." - Wayne Gretsky

Mortality
"Everything passes, everything perishes, everything palls."
“There will come a time when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever. There was time before organisms experienced consciousness, and there will be time after. And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that’s what everyone else does.”  John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
“What is an "instant" death anyway? How long is an instant? Is it one second? Ten? The pain of those seconds must have been awful as her heart burst and her lungs collapsed and there was no air and no blood to her brain and only raw panic. What the hell is instant? Nothing is instant. Instant rice takes five minutes, instant pudding an hour. I doubt that an instant of blinding pain feels particularly instantaneous.”  -John Green

Fun Quotes
"How to be $500 Richer at Prom Night" by Skip It out on Barnes and Nobles, trending now. ;) Hehe. Haters gonna hate." -Eric Lin
"Marriage has no guarantees. If that's what you're looking for, go live with a car battery." - Erma Bombeck
"Once upon a time there was a statue. It stood in the same place since the beginning of time. This made the statue very lonely, except the statue wasn't lonely. This is because statues don't have feelings." -Ryan Minoc
"Roses are red. Violets are blue. No mutual friends, who the hell are you?"
"Vote for Obama, because you are voting for Blackhood and Black Rights and Gay Rights and Rights in general and just the Bill of Rights with the Ten Commandments of Rights and the Rights of mankind, and of Womanhood." - Eric Lin
"Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die." 
"Girls are from Venus and men are from Mars. We're both too lazy to walk to each other so we settle for Earth. True story." -Eric Lin
"I'm in favor of it as long as it's multiple choice." -Kurt Rambis, on drug testing

Other
"Nobody is perfect. I am nobody."
"Everybody is special. Just like everybody."
"But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?" -Mark Twain
"Tell a lie. Make it big, and make it clear. Repeat it over and over and eventually people will believe it." - Joseph Goebbels
"She locked away a secret, deep inside herself, something she once knew to be true... but chose to forget. " - Cobb, Inception
"An idea is like a virus. Very resilient, highly contagious." - Cobb, Inception
"Don't you want to take a leap of faith? Or become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone!" - Saito, Inception

Friday, June 7, 2013

Religion Deconstructed Second Version

Hey people of the interwebs,

After a lot of work (and over 75 typos and lots of new content and whatnot) later, the second edition of the book, Religion Deconstructed is finally out. I won't be making a new version any time soon, so rest assured the book won't be "obsolete" tomorrow. I've deleted the old post on the first version of the book. It has an updated cover too. :) As I said the first time, all of my old religion blog posts are obsolete because this book covers all of that and then some.

https://www.facebook.com/EricLin0/posts/10200709713219633

The link above features a post with a link to download the book for free. It's in a 7z archive with PDF and Docx archive. The other link inside that link takes you to the Lulu page where the book is published. The physical copy costs $7.50 to print so I don't expect any orders except from me. :)